Not Much Goin On

So yeah the title says it all. I'm just chillin at the moment till I can get back to the college. I can not wait for that. I love everyone here, but I miss my man what can I say?

I'm chatting occasionally with some old friends at the college and beyond. And every night talkin to max, and trying to keep in contact with Heather, but stuff keeps happinin, and hey if you read this tonight I'm gonna call you tomarrow morning at the latest, promise!! I really do I just have some stuff on my plate at the moment.

I ave been tryin to do some more drawing again, it's just been slow getting in to it again. I think I'm gonna do somemore tonight though.....

wish there was more, but nope... nothin....

Of Turky, Korean Women, and Missing Money

You have to admit that that's a new title.

Thanksgiving was amazing this year! This was my biggest holiday ever, seeing as how I was at Max's uncles for Thanksgiving. They live in a small but very wonderful house in one of the really nice parts of Rochester. I wish that I had remembered my camera because there were so many people that I would have loved to take pictures of, so many amazing scenes.... I regret not having my camera. But I must say that even though I don't have pictures, the day is still in crystal clarity in my mind. Most of the people there I had met before, but I did get to meet Max's uncle Mat's partners mother. Now Mat's partner Ken is Korean, so of coarse kens mother is VERY Korean! She was so cute and little I just wanted to give her a hug, I love that woman! Oh there where so many people there though, after all in that small house was packed 27 people and 6 dogs. To put this in a bit more perspective the dogs where, and this is in order of size;
1. Mats Jack Russel Terrier
2. Baley, Kens smallish dog idk the breed
3. Babe, aunt Mary's golden retriever puppy
4. Sluggo, aunt Mary's fat chocolate lab
5. Dee Dee, aunt Claudia's black Great Dane
6. Fred, Aunt Claudia's black and white spotted HUGE Great Dane

27 people and 6 dogs in every size imaginable, in a smallish house. I was a bit overwhelmed seeing as how my thanksgivings have always been just My mom, dad and years ago my brother and I, since my brother left all those years ago though It's just been me and my parents. So this was a big step up.

There was so much food too! 2 huge turkeys, a ham, two giant things of stuffing, Indian pudding, squash, and Kim Shi. Not to mention the amazing desert spread with about 6 pumpkin pies, 2 apple pies and a huge scrumptious yellow cake with white frosting and coconut all over the outside! I ate so much desert....... It was amazing. Oh and Max's cousins kids made jello..... with almonds in it. Safe to say that was still there when the night was done.

Aftre dinner every one talked and told stories, it was amazing. And then I played six person euchre with Max, his grandfather, aunt claudia, uncle luke and Max's little sister Hannah, and I was so happy when my team won!!! the whole night was amazing! I loved every minute of it!

Then came sunday........

I had spent twelve dollars over the weekend of the hundred dollars that my mother put in on wednesday. That's all that I had spent because the reats had to go for groceries this week and to pay for my part of the phone bill this month. Well, Max and I stopped at a greek diner for lunch on the trip back to my dorm. We ordered and I decided while we waited to call my banks automated service so I would know EXACTLY how much I had spent, like down to the penny. I'm neurotic that way. And of all the money that shoul have been there, all 88 bucks of it, I had about 9 dollars of it. I almost cryed in the diner. The only reason I didn't was because I didn't want to make a scene. Well Max calmed me down, and told me that he would pay for groceries this week and that if I couldn't get the missing money back in time he would pay for my phone bill and I won't have to worry about paying him back. He's such a sweetheart.

Meanwhile, this morning I called my bank to talk to someone. They found that some company had been taking money out of my account, and I have no idea how they got my account information. They took out 40 bucks on friday and theres another 40 thats pending, and thats why I only have 9 bucks available. Well, the companies phone numbers where atached to teh statement that they had, so they gave me the numbers and I called, and I bitched, a lot. By the end of the conversation they promised that all the money would be put back, and that it will all be fully deposited in my bank within 7-10 buisness days. I have kept there number and the confermation number they gave me so that if they decide not to pay or to mess with me any more I have a little bit more on my side. Also, I had my debit card suspended so no one else can get in to it, and as soon as the money is deposited, my mom is going to go to my bank all the way back home and shift my money to my savings account, close out my checking account, and send me my money via a money order.

I tell ya, crazy stuff every day, every day of my life.

Quote Quote

Max - "I will piss in a cup and make you drink it!"

Ray - "I will not drink that piss. No sir."

I'm Happy!!!!

OK so all or most of you should know by now that Max proposed to me Friday night. And of coarse I said YES!!! He surprised me that night with that. And it makes a cool story, I mean how many people can say they got engaged on Halloween night? I love it. I love him! Oh I'm so happy about that! But everyone, don't worry, we do try to be smart about things, so we set the date for Fall 2010, that way we have enough time to make sure that everything works out and we can save up money and make sure that everything else works, so don't think we are rushing to fast in to things. I don't have a ring yet, so don't ask to see my ring. Max doesn't have the money rite now to get me one, and that doesn't bother me at all because I know he doesn't, after all he's been buying me food ALL semester, the sweetheart, and I can wait. He told me that he was going to get one for me this winter vacation because I'm coming home for the month and a half long break and so he's going to save his extra money each week to buy me a ring. I told him he's not aloud to spend to much on me though. I myself am fine with a 20$ ring, I really don't need much. As long as it's from him I'm happy.

Um, on another note, the suits have been just as crazy as ever. Last week my roommates decided to make a slip and slide in our hallway. I can't make that up. It was constructed entirely of garbage bags and duct tape, with laundry detergent to make it slippery. I'm surprised that no one broke an ankle. It was a lot of fun though to watch my roommates slide down the hall, always very close to having a concussion or strait out dying. I would have done it but didn't feel like a trip to the hospital again. I've been there to much this semester.

Oh and I'm crocheting a blanket! I have never made a full Afghan before and started making this one the day after Max proposed to me, so I know I am going to Finnish it because it has a lot of emotional attachment to it now. It's really cool looking so far, and I know that it's going to look amazing when I finish it.

A lot has happened recently. So much. I don't know what else to write about though because a lot of it has been very personal. But the overall important part is that I am happy. Very very happy!

Ow

Ow!
No, I'll be ok
I just forgot
forgot about the pain
of her being a person
forgot about the tears
she would eventually cry
they've always been there
behind those wide eyes
just waiting for that trigger

-----you

you did it to me
so of coarse you'd do it to her
make her fall for you

your so predictible
manipulating her
making her dependent on you

so when you'd pull that final hit
rite to her soul-er plexus
she'd fall to her knees
broken, eyeshadow smeared
calling me at midnight
to mend her wounds
pleading for a way
to escape the pain

I open my mouth to help her
to tell her how to move on
but my jaw hangs open
silent and still

cause I've studied for this question
first hand for so long
yet still
I have no answer
don't know what type of band aid to use

I can only listen to your tears
be your rock
and silently weep myself

I don't even know anymore........

I don't really know what to say.....um, Max is feeling better of course. No more sickness. Classes are going well, though I have a 6 page essay due on Thursday that i still have yet to do. Yay procrastination! My doctors appointment this last weekend was mysteriously canceled by some unseen force. I was so upset about that. I have another appointment set however for the 24 so I'll be back home then for the weekend. Not much else is going on, or at least not much else that I want to talk about on here. Just a bunch of emotional drama at the moment. It will all get worked out soon. I hope. Rawr. Sorry that theres not much to this one, but hopefully the next one will be more juicy for ya.

Damn, Antibiotics are Everywhere.......

So Max is sick now. My roommates have been sick for like a month, and now my poor hun has gotten sick to. First it was just a simple cold, but soon it morphed in to something worse. Now he has Pharyngitis. I made him go to a doctor today, and so he has antibiotics now. He will be better soon. He's in my room sleeping while I am in the living room on my laptop. One of my roommates, Stephanie, is sleeping on the couch next to my chair. Lucky for me I have headphones for my music.

Life is going somewhat smooth as of late. Monday nights we have hero's nights with friends in the commons room, where we watch Heroes on the plasma screen tv. And when they start open mic night again we are gonna be going to that as religously as possible. Also, Tuesday nights Kaleigh stays over on my couch and the three of us hang out. My life isn't as crazy as last year, but it's kind of nice. I didn't think I'd be able to get used to more regular hours and actually getting a full nights sleep every night, but I'm ajusting.

I'm starting to write more poetry now. I never really got in to writing poetry before this, but thanks to some big influences in my life, including Kami and seeing Buddy Wakefield at the college a while ago, I feel a bit more creative towards it. And any one that knows me knows I live to be creative. This is just turning in to another outlet. Iv'e got a name on All Poetry now to. If youd like to view my poetry,please feel free to peruse the few works I have on there so far. http://allpoetry.com/Alive4aLiving is my site.

I'll write more another time, this was more or less just to update those that still read my blog.