So Max is sick now. My roommates have been sick for like a month, and now my poor hun has gotten sick to. First it was just a simple cold, but soon it morphed in to something worse. Now he has Pharyngitis. I made him go to a doctor today, and so he has antibiotics now. He will be better soon. He's in my room sleeping while I am in the living room on my laptop. One of my roommates, Stephanie, is sleeping on the couch next to my chair. Lucky for me I have headphones for my music.
Life is going somewhat smooth as of late. Monday nights we have hero's nights with friends in the commons room, where we watch Heroes on the plasma screen tv. And when they start open mic night again we are gonna be going to that as religously as possible. Also, Tuesday nights Kaleigh stays over on my couch and the three of us hang out. My life isn't as crazy as last year, but it's kind of nice. I didn't think I'd be able to get used to more regular hours and actually getting a full nights sleep every night, but I'm ajusting.
I'm starting to write more poetry now. I never really got in to writing poetry before this, but thanks to some big influences in my life, including Kami and seeing Buddy Wakefield at the college a while ago, I feel a bit more creative towards it. And any one that knows me knows I live to be creative. This is just turning in to another outlet. Iv'e got a name on All Poetry now to. If youd like to view my poetry,please feel free to peruse the few works I have on there so far. http://allpoetry.com/Alive4aLiving is my site.
I'll write more another time, this was more or less just to update those that still read my blog.
Something New
So I want to give a try a writing poetry...it's not much, but I kind of like where it's going. Also, it's a spoken word, so that's why the lines are kind of screwy.
My Room
Sometimes, when I'm in class
sitting at that desk
writing Sublime lyrics in my notebook
I want to go to my room
Not my dorm room
Not my bedroom
not my boyfriends bedroom,
er....I mean his mom's basement
No, I wanna go to MY room
My room is big and small
My room fits any where I fit
But I don't always fit in my room..
My rooms walls change colors
they change with my presence
my walls are hippie mood walls
My room has shelves everywhere
And they are filled with blue glass bottles
Some of the bottles are beautiful
with frosted glass
and silver bobbles around the necks
I like those bottles
But a lot more of them are dark
and the glass bubbles
and is twisted and gnarled
like dead hanging trees
Some I want to break
So I never have to see them again
I just wish that more of them would be...
easier to look at.
Comment please.
My Room
Sometimes, when I'm in class
sitting at that desk
writing Sublime lyrics in my notebook
I want to go to my room
Not my dorm room
Not my bedroom
not my boyfriends bedroom,
er....I mean his mom's basement
No, I wanna go to MY room
My room is big and small
My room fits any where I fit
But I don't always fit in my room..
My rooms walls change colors
they change with my presence
my walls are hippie mood walls
My room has shelves everywhere
And they are filled with blue glass bottles
Some of the bottles are beautiful
with frosted glass
and silver bobbles around the necks
I like those bottles
But a lot more of them are dark
and the glass bubbles
and is twisted and gnarled
like dead hanging trees
Some I want to break
So I never have to see them again
I just wish that more of them would be...
easier to look at.
Comment please.
Pardon Me, Give Me My Respect, and Keep it all in Fun -or- I Would Never Trade the Way I am for the Way I'm Not
Classes are going well. I haven't missed a single one yet, and I don't think I'll be skipping any any time soon. So far my favorite class seems to be my Professional Selling class. My teacher for that is amazingly awesome, and I love to sell things so it's pretty much perfect. My US History class is also pretty cool. My teacher, Dr. Harmon, is so cool. He teaches History differently then most teach, so it's easier to learn. Also, he's an awesome individual. He has a really cool sense of humor to. Also, he keeps us updated on whats going on with his court case against the college. Come to find out, Dr. Harmon is trying to sign his Partner up on to his health insurance through the college. FLCC however is being a prick and not letting him add him even though they were legally married in Massachusetts a few years ago. It's crazy because FLCC's lawyers are saying now that to be elegeble they need to go and get married again. So Doc is going in a few weekends with his partner to get marred again.
I've been listening to a different style of music then I normally do lately. It started when I went to a poetry out loud thing by this guy named Buddy Wakefield. I love his poetry, it's just so amazing. I bought his book that day to, and he signed it for me. It helped me think clearer when I heard him, when I saw his raw energy, how much he believed in his beliefs and his clarity of mind, it just helped me see things a bit clearer. I guess you could say that some more of the rose has come out of my glasses. He mentioned the name of an artist while he was up there to, called Sage Francis. I looked him up that night and I'll be damned I loved what I heard. Sage Francis' work is a kind of stylized and beautifully crafted rap for the people. I love it all. And then I started searching for more artists like him. I've found Atmosphere, Illogic, Blackaliciouse and Brother Ali. Honestly, even if you don't like rap, give them a listen with an open mind, actually listen to the lyrics, and I think you'll enjoy what you hear.
Not much else is going on, or at least nothing that I want to talk about on a blog. I am working on some art rite now and when It's done I'm going to post them on my art blog http://www.chopsticksandporn.blogspot.com/ as always. So please, give it a look, and as always, have a wonderful day, a wonderful month, and a wonderful life.
+If we could all rephrase the question from "What was your most embarrassing moment?" to "What was your most embarrassing year?" Then I might be able to give you an honest answer. - Buddy Wakefield
+We know you're not perfect because we're not. And I know I ain't perfect. But I believe I was meant to be. -Buddy Wakefield
OMG I have food!!
I love Max so much. He does so much for me, I mean, he drove 3 hours all summer to come and see me, many time just t o spend a couple days with me, he takes m to the hospital when my tonsils start to act up, when I start to get upset about anything, and I mean anything, he's rite there to comfort me and stays by my side, he buys me food and takes me out for lunch and dinner and puts up with me when I get in a bitchy mood. Honestly I don't know what I'd do with out him.
Last semester, I was living on 20 bucks a week. My whole meal basis for months was just cereal, pop tarts and instant pastas. That was it. Last week, Max spent 50 bucks on food for my dorm. Then, just today he spent like 35 bucks on just food. He's so sweet about it to, I keep saying he doesn't have to do it and he's just like, "No, don't worry, i do it because I love you." He's so sweet!
The whole thing with Allan has calmed down now. He apologized to me, through AIM instead of face to face, but he tried to apologize. That doesn't mean that I'm going to start hanging out with him, in fact I refuse to be around him now, for good reason of coarse. But that whole issue has finally died down.
I got my hair cut to yesterday. I got it trimmed and layered, except the layers this time are actually noticeable. My hair feels a lot lighter now to, yet it's still on the long side, so it makes it perfect for this summer. Max thinks it looks really cute. I haven't been around anyone else really that would notice that I got my hair cut so I don't know what other people think about it. I like it though. Max said that next week he will try to get me some hair dye so that I can dye it red again.
Still no help on the job front. I've really been trying to get a job but it just hasn't worked out yet, I haven't gotten any calls. I think I'm gonna go walking again and try to find some more places to apply to this week. Someplace has to hire me. I just need a job. I hate just sitting around like I feel I am on days I don't have classes.
Well that's about it on the news front. I'll catch you all later.
It is 4:58 in the AM and I Just Want To Sleep!
Holy shit I HATE being up this god damn early! The only reason that I'm up this late is because I'm sick again. That's rite I'm having another problems with my tonsils. La
st Thursday, After a full day of classes, ax had to drive me to the hospital, again, because my tonsils were swollen. Upon arrival my first nurse got my paper work done, the second nurse did some computer work on me, looked down my throat and exclaimed "Holy shit!" Because they were so big. They were so big that he called teh first nurse in to come and look, and she informed me that they were the biggest tonsils she'd EVER seen. I've heard that before this summer. Then they get me to a room so I can see a doctor. But first, another nurse. When she looks down my throat, she actually jumped back a bit. Yet again, that has happened before this summer. Then I get a prick of a doctor that is questioning my ability to figure out if I'm really sick again, treating me like a child and speaking down to me. Then he looks down my throat. And funny enough, he realized that I could defined tell that I was sick. Oh and did I mention that EVERY person here told me that I should think about getting my tonsils removed. Every time I almost flipped out on them. I think that after an entire summer of being sick with this same exact bullshit that I would know that I have to get my tonsils removed. Well, the good news is that after October 10th I AM going to be having my tonsils removed. I just have to have my Doctors appointment in Olean that day, and then my newly established insurance can get everything set up down here for me to get my tonsils removed. Thank god cause I need these puppies out. This is the second time that they have given me Clindamyacine. This is pretty much the "anti-every-problem-in-the-book" pill. I web MD'd this medication, and found that it is not only used for problems like mine but also for treating things like - Adult Acne, Toxic Shock Syndrome, Malaria, and necrotizing fasciitis. Thats rite, it's also the Anti-Zombie pill! Necrotizing fasciitis is the flesh eating bacteria, also known as zombification, or Shaun of the Dead Syndrome. So yeah, I may never have to worry about another health problem ever again. Unless it's my tonsils, those bastards will keep bothering me untill I get them ripped from my throat and sealed in a smuckers jar.
Rawr! And now Max just left my apartment. I heard the door close just now. He has to go to work now. Wiich means that I have to fall asleep by myself again so that I can TRY to be a fully functioning human being during classes today. I'm going to need coffee, and a lot of it, in the morning.
Also, I have to deal with a little prick sometime tomorrow. I couldn't believe what happened yesterday. I met this guy named Allan here at the college last week. He is actually Tim's cousin. Thing is though, he seemed normal. He looked normal and acted normal, and seemed like a generally nice guy. Well we said Hi a few times last week, but I rarely saw him seeing that 'm rarely in the lounge these days, just to much to do what with classes and trying to get a job and people like this. Back to what happened, I was with Crystal chatting and catching up on old time since we hadn't chatted all summer. So we were sitting on a couch and suddenly he comes up behind me and kneels on the floor behind me. A little weird. Well I turned and said hi, then turned back to my conversation. A few seconds later, the bastard bit me in the neck! I jumped cause he surprised the shit out of me, and in jumping it made his teeth grate against my skin even harder then he was already biting. I had a big red bite mark on my neck because of him. Oh and did I mention that I was waiting to go and meet max at the suits in about ten minutes? And I had a bite mark on my neck that was clearly visible. And Max is protective enough of me as it is, I knew that he would not be happy about this. Well, unfortunately there is definitely more to this. Well, it freaked me out as you may well know, after ll i was just bit. And before I could really say anything, Crystal got me out of there rite quick. She's met Max and knows that I would never cheat on him. We were walking around the college, steering away from the lounge so that I wouldn't have to deal with him rite then, and talking about what just happened. Also because I knew that Max would flip shit if he saw a mark on my neck as bad as Crystal said it was, she gave me her cold cranberry juice to hold against my neck to get the mark to go away. As soon as I take the bottle away and hand it to Crystal, he's suddenly behind me, grabbing me, one arm around my waist and one between my neck and breasts, like on top of my breasts. I was lost for words at this point, I couldn't believe that he was just man handling me like this, people don't do that to me, not like this guy was. He was being a strait out creep and I wanted non of it. I looked at Crystal and she goes "Hey get off my Bitch she's mine!" He let go and looked at her saying, "She's yours?". She replied with, "Yup I bought her a while ago she's mine." Now I'm still silent now, still trying to process where he got the balls to pull this shit with me when I hear him say, "yeah well I have a bass and pedals so I've got more for her to play with." Can any one say "Pervert"? Well, I kept it cool, I reached over and put my hands on Crystals boobs, as I have done before, and said "Naw I prefer to play with these, they are way more fun." All of a sudden, I kid you not, as soon as I let go of her, he reached up and grabs my boobs, both of them, and says quick as shit, "No I think that these would be much more fun." I grabbed his hands and pulled them down saying a very firm "NO" and turned and Crystal and I walked away. I definitely have to have a very long discussion with him today, set down the line. He was incredibly lucky because After it happened, while I was waiting for Max, I told Ray what happened and he was pissed and wanted to beat the shit out of him. Max arrived minutes later, I told him what happened and he was livid. Both of them were rearing for a fight with him, and we ended up walking to the college to see if he was still there. He was gone by the time we got there, and Max and ray were then pissed about that because they had no way to expell there energy now. So we went back to my place and the boys played some gears of war on the Xbox 360. I still can't beleive what he did to me. I've never been that physically acosted before by some one so blatently being a prick. Now though that I'm over the shock I should be able to stop it from ever happeneng again fromany one because there wont be shock, just me flipping shit on someone.
Okay I'm going to bed now. My meds should be all settled so that I'm not sick when I wake up, so sleep sounds very welcome rite about now. I'll catch you all later, and wish me luck todaywith that prick Allan, cause I'm gonna beat the shit out of him if he tries any of this shit again.
st Thursday, After a full day of classes, ax had to drive me to the hospital, again, because my tonsils were swollen. Upon arrival my first nurse got my paper work done, the second nurse did some computer work on me, looked down my throat and exclaimed "Holy shit!" Because they were so big. They were so big that he called teh first nurse in to come and look, and she informed me that they were the biggest tonsils she'd EVER seen. I've heard that before this summer. Then they get me to a room so I can see a doctor. But first, another nurse. When she looks down my throat, she actually jumped back a bit. Yet again, that has happened before this summer. Then I get a prick of a doctor that is questioning my ability to figure out if I'm really sick again, treating me like a child and speaking down to me. Then he looks down my throat. And funny enough, he realized that I could defined tell that I was sick. Oh and did I mention that EVERY person here told me that I should think about getting my tonsils removed. Every time I almost flipped out on them. I think that after an entire summer of being sick with this same exact bullshit that I would know that I have to get my tonsils removed. Well, the good news is that after October 10th I AM going to be having my tonsils removed. I just have to have my Doctors appointment in Olean that day, and then my newly established insurance can get everything set up down here for me to get my tonsils removed. Thank god cause I need these puppies out. This is the second time that they have given me Clindamyacine. This is pretty much the "anti-every-problem-in-the-book" pill. I web MD'd this medication, and found that it is not only used for problems like mine but also for treating things like - Adult Acne, Toxic Shock Syndrome, Malaria, and necrotizing fasciitis. Thats rite, it's also the Anti-Zombie pill! Necrotizing fasciitis is the flesh eating bacteria, also known as zombification, or Shaun of the Dead Syndrome. So yeah, I may never have to worry about another health problem ever again. Unless it's my tonsils, those bastards will keep bothering me untill I get them ripped from my throat and sealed in a smuckers jar.Rawr! And now Max just left my apartment. I heard the door close just now. He has to go to work now. Wiich means that I have to fall asleep by myself again so that I can TRY to be a fully functioning human being during classes today. I'm going to need coffee, and a lot of it, in the morning.
Also, I have to deal with a little prick sometime tomorrow. I couldn't believe what happened yesterday. I met this guy named Allan here at the college last week. He is actually Tim's cousin. Thing is though, he seemed normal. He looked normal and acted normal, and seemed like a generally nice guy. Well we said Hi a few times last week, but I rarely saw him seeing that 'm rarely in the lounge these days, just to much to do what with classes and trying to get a job and people like this. Back to what happened, I was with Crystal chatting and catching up on old time since we hadn't chatted all summer. So we were sitting on a couch and suddenly he comes up behind me and kneels on the floor behind me. A little weird. Well I turned and said hi, then turned back to my conversation. A few seconds later, the bastard bit me in the neck! I jumped cause he surprised the shit out of me, and in jumping it made his teeth grate against my skin even harder then he was already biting. I had a big red bite mark on my neck because of him. Oh and did I mention that I was waiting to go and meet max at the suits in about ten minutes? And I had a bite mark on my neck that was clearly visible. And Max is protective enough of me as it is, I knew that he would not be happy about this. Well, unfortunately there is definitely more to this. Well, it freaked me out as you may well know, after ll i was just bit. And before I could really say anything, Crystal got me out of there rite quick. She's met Max and knows that I would never cheat on him. We were walking around the college, steering away from the lounge so that I wouldn't have to deal with him rite then, and talking about what just happened. Also because I knew that Max would flip shit if he saw a mark on my neck as bad as Crystal said it was, she gave me her cold cranberry juice to hold against my neck to get the mark to go away. As soon as I take the bottle away and hand it to Crystal, he's suddenly behind me, grabbing me, one arm around my waist and one between my neck and breasts, like on top of my breasts. I was lost for words at this point, I couldn't believe that he was just man handling me like this, people don't do that to me, not like this guy was. He was being a strait out creep and I wanted non of it. I looked at Crystal and she goes "Hey get off my Bitch she's mine!" He let go and looked at her saying, "She's yours?". She replied with, "Yup I bought her a while ago she's mine." Now I'm still silent now, still trying to process where he got the balls to pull this shit with me when I hear him say, "yeah well I have a bass and pedals so I've got more for her to play with." Can any one say "Pervert"? Well, I kept it cool, I reached over and put my hands on Crystals boobs, as I have done before, and said "Naw I prefer to play with these, they are way more fun." All of a sudden, I kid you not, as soon as I let go of her, he reached up and grabs my boobs, both of them, and says quick as shit, "No I think that these would be much more fun." I grabbed his hands and pulled them down saying a very firm "NO" and turned and Crystal and I walked away. I definitely have to have a very long discussion with him today, set down the line. He was incredibly lucky because After it happened, while I was waiting for Max, I told Ray what happened and he was pissed and wanted to beat the shit out of him. Max arrived minutes later, I told him what happened and he was livid. Both of them were rearing for a fight with him, and we ended up walking to the college to see if he was still there. He was gone by the time we got there, and Max and ray were then pissed about that because they had no way to expell there energy now. So we went back to my place and the boys played some gears of war on the Xbox 360. I still can't beleive what he did to me. I've never been that physically acosted before by some one so blatently being a prick. Now though that I'm over the shock I should be able to stop it from ever happeneng again fromany one because there wont be shock, just me flipping shit on someone.
Okay I'm going to bed now. My meds should be all settled so that I'm not sick when I wake up, so sleep sounds very welcome rite about now. I'll catch you all later, and wish me luck todaywith that prick Allan, cause I'm gonna beat the shit out of him if he tries any of this shit again.
..........mmmmmm..............neeeeeed sleeeeeeeeep...............
So I'm tired, that's one thing goin' on now.
Move in to the dorms was nice and simple, got everything in in just a few trips, and I'm on the first floor so it was twice as easy. My ceilings higher to, so that's sweet, I don't feel tall anymore when i jump and hit my head on the ceiling. Plus my room is a bit bigger, more walking space. It's nice.
max helped me get my room unpacked on the first day, and now I have all my drawings and paintings up on the wall. It's nice, very nice. Already a bit cluttered, but still very nice.
I'm filling out applications now to. Lets see here.......I've got the papers NOW for Micheles, TJ Max, and Olympia Sports store. I'm going to be doing a lot of walking today, handing back applications and getting more. I know I'm also going to be applying to Peebles, Pet Depot, Jo Anne Fabrics, Bon Ton, and some other bsic stores in the area. The only places I'm not applying to are food sercvice places and Walmart. I'm a store kind of person, what with stocking shelves and ringing customers up and that kind of thing. I should have a job soon though.
My classes are going well. I like all of the classes that I have taken up, wich is a rare thing. I normally hate at least one of my classes. But my teachers are all great and I think I'm going toget what I need out of all of my classes. Also I'm taking a profesional selling class so that should help me at my new job.
mmmm.......not much else to chat about. I'm on my period so I'm cramping a shit ton with no midol. But that may be TMI for you. My room mates are al really cool. I think that we are all gonna get together really well this semester. Other then that, I don't know what else to say, I got nothin else.
Move in to the dorms was nice and simple, got everything in in just a few trips, and I'm on the first floor so it was twice as easy. My ceilings higher to, so that's sweet, I don't feel tall anymore when i jump and hit my head on the ceiling. Plus my room is a bit bigger, more walking space. It's nice.
max helped me get my room unpacked on the first day, and now I have all my drawings and paintings up on the wall. It's nice, very nice. Already a bit cluttered, but still very nice.
I'm filling out applications now to. Lets see here.......I've got the papers NOW for Micheles, TJ Max, and Olympia Sports store. I'm going to be doing a lot of walking today, handing back applications and getting more. I know I'm also going to be applying to Peebles, Pet Depot, Jo Anne Fabrics, Bon Ton, and some other bsic stores in the area. The only places I'm not applying to are food sercvice places and Walmart. I'm a store kind of person, what with stocking shelves and ringing customers up and that kind of thing. I should have a job soon though.
My classes are going well. I like all of the classes that I have taken up, wich is a rare thing. I normally hate at least one of my classes. But my teachers are all great and I think I'm going toget what I need out of all of my classes. Also I'm taking a profesional selling class so that should help me at my new job.
mmmm.......not much else to chat about. I'm on my period so I'm cramping a shit ton with no midol. But that may be TMI for you. My room mates are al really cool. I think that we are all gonna get together really well this semester. Other then that, I don't know what else to say, I got nothin else.