It is 4:58 in the AM and I Just Want To Sleep!

Holy shit I HATE being up this god damn early! The only reason that I'm up this late is because I'm sick again. That's rite I'm having another problems with my tonsils. Last Thursday, After a full day of classes, ax had to drive me to the hospital, again, because my tonsils were swollen. Upon arrival my first nurse got my paper work done, the second nurse did some computer work on me, looked down my throat and exclaimed "Holy shit!" Because they were so big. They were so big that he called teh first nurse in to come and look, and she informed me that they were the biggest tonsils she'd EVER seen. I've heard that before this summer. Then they get me to a room so I can see a doctor. But first, another nurse. When she looks down my throat, she actually jumped back a bit. Yet again, that has happened before this summer. Then I get a prick of a doctor that is questioning my ability to figure out if I'm really sick again, treating me like a child and speaking down to me. Then he looks down my throat. And funny enough, he realized that I could defined tell that I was sick. Oh and did I mention that EVERY person here told me that I should think about getting my tonsils removed. Every time I almost flipped out on them. I think that after an entire summer of being sick with this same exact bullshit that I would know that I have to get my tonsils removed. Well, the good news is that after October 10th I AM going to be having my tonsils removed. I just have to have my Doctors appointment in Olean that day, and then my newly established insurance can get everything set up down here for me to get my tonsils removed. Thank god cause I need these puppies out. This is the second time that they have given me Clindamyacine. This is pretty much the "anti-every-problem-in-the-book" pill. I web MD'd this medication, and found that it is not only used for problems like mine but also for treating things like - Adult Acne, Toxic Shock Syndrome, Malaria, and necrotizing fasciitis. Thats rite, it's also the Anti-Zombie pill! Necrotizing fasciitis is the flesh eating bacteria, also known as zombification, or Shaun of the Dead Syndrome. So yeah, I may never have to worry about another health problem ever again. Unless it's my tonsils, those bastards will keep bothering me untill I get them ripped from my throat and sealed in a smuckers jar.

Rawr! And now Max just left my apartment. I heard the door close just now. He has to go to work now. Wiich means that I have to fall asleep by myself again so that I can TRY to be a fully functioning human being during classes today. I'm going to need coffee, and a lot of it, in the morning.

Also, I have to deal with a little prick sometime tomorrow. I couldn't believe what happened yesterday. I met this guy named Allan here at the college last week. He is actually Tim's cousin. Thing is though, he seemed normal. He looked normal and acted normal, and seemed like a generally nice guy. Well we said Hi a few times last week, but I rarely saw him seeing that 'm rarely in the lounge these days, just to much to do what with classes and trying to get a job and people like this. Back to what happened, I was with Crystal chatting and catching up on old time since we hadn't chatted all summer. So we were sitting on a couch and suddenly he comes up behind me and kneels on the floor behind me. A little weird. Well I turned and said hi, then turned back to my conversation. A few seconds later, the bastard bit me in the neck! I jumped cause he surprised the shit out of me, and in jumping it made his teeth grate against my skin even harder then he was already biting. I had a big red bite mark on my neck because of him. Oh and did I mention that I was waiting to go and meet max at the suits in about ten minutes? And I had a bite mark on my neck that was clearly visible. And Max is protective enough of me as it is, I knew that he would not be happy about this. Well, unfortunately there is definitely more to this. Well, it freaked me out as you may well know, after ll i was just bit. And before I could really say anything, Crystal got me out of there rite quick. She's met Max and knows that I would never cheat on him. We were walking around the college, steering away from the lounge so that I wouldn't have to deal with him rite then, and talking about what just happened. Also because I knew that Max would flip shit if he saw a mark on my neck as bad as Crystal said it was, she gave me her cold cranberry juice to hold against my neck to get the mark to go away. As soon as I take the bottle away and hand it to Crystal, he's suddenly behind me, grabbing me, one arm around my waist and one between my neck and breasts, like on top of my breasts. I was lost for words at this point, I couldn't believe that he was just man handling me like this, people don't do that to me, not like this guy was. He was being a strait out creep and I wanted non of it. I looked at Crystal and she goes "Hey get off my Bitch she's mine!" He let go and looked at her saying, "She's yours?". She replied with, "Yup I bought her a while ago she's mine." Now I'm still silent now, still trying to process where he got the balls to pull this shit with me when I hear him say, "yeah well I have a bass and pedals so I've got more for her to play with." Can any one say "Pervert"? Well, I kept it cool, I reached over and put my hands on Crystals boobs, as I have done before, and said "Naw I prefer to play with these, they are way more fun." All of a sudden, I kid you not, as soon as I let go of her, he reached up and grabs my boobs, both of them, and says quick as shit, "No I think that these would be much more fun." I grabbed his hands and pulled them down saying a very firm "NO" and turned and Crystal and I walked away. I definitely have to have a very long discussion with him today, set down the line. He was incredibly lucky because After it happened, while I was waiting for Max, I told Ray what happened and he was pissed and wanted to beat the shit out of him. Max arrived minutes later, I told him what happened and he was livid. Both of them were rearing for a fight with him, and we ended up walking to the college to see if he was still there. He was gone by the time we got there, and Max and ray were then pissed about that because they had no way to expell there energy now. So we went back to my place and the boys played some gears of war on the Xbox 360. I still can't beleive what he did to me. I've never been that physically acosted before by some one so blatently being a prick. Now though that I'm over the shock I should be able to stop it from ever happeneng again fromany one because there wont be shock, just me flipping shit on someone.

Okay I'm going to bed now. My meds should be all settled so that I'm not sick when I wake up, so sleep sounds very welcome rite about now. I'll catch you all later, and wish me luck todaywith that prick Allan, cause I'm gonna beat the shit out of him if he tries any of this shit again.

..........mmmmmm..............neeeeeed sleeeeeeeeep...............

So I'm tired, that's one thing goin' on now.

Move in to the dorms was nice and simple, got everything in in just a few trips, and I'm on the first floor so it was twice as easy. My ceilings higher to, so that's sweet, I don't feel tall anymore when i jump and hit my head on the ceiling. Plus my room is a bit bigger, more walking space. It's nice.

max helped me get my room unpacked on the first day, and now I have all my drawings and paintings up on the wall. It's nice, very nice. Already a bit cluttered, but still very nice.

I'm filling out applications now to. Lets see here.......I've got the papers NOW for Micheles, TJ Max, and Olympia Sports store. I'm going to be doing a lot of walking today, handing back applications and getting more. I know I'm also going to be applying to Peebles, Pet Depot, Jo Anne Fabrics, Bon Ton, and some other bsic stores in the area. The only places I'm not applying to are food sercvice places and Walmart. I'm a store kind of person, what with stocking shelves and ringing customers up and that kind of thing. I should have a job soon though.

My classes are going well. I like all of the classes that I have taken up, wich is a rare thing. I normally hate at least one of my classes. But my teachers are all great and I think I'm going toget what I need out of all of my classes. Also I'm taking a profesional selling class so that should help me at my new job.

mmmm.......not much else to chat about. I'm on my period so I'm cramping a shit ton with no midol. But that may be TMI for you. My room mates are al really cool. I think that we are all gonna get together really well this semester. Other then that, I don't know what else to say, I got nothin else.

A deck, my love and limited time.....

So for the past couple days I've been helping to build a deck. Yes, me and power tools and a hammer. No, there hasn't been bloodshed and tears. Yet. Also I've been painting and staining like a bitch! I hate latice work, it takes forever to paint and, seriously, just buy the plastic kind thats in different colors. I mean seriously people. Damn. But hey, it's fun and David is paying me to help as much as I am, and I seriously need the money for college. And he pays well. Very well. So I don't argue bitch or complain. Plus building stuff is kinda fun.

Also, as a note, my love is coming over this weekend. I can't wait, he's been driving me nuts the last two weeks cause I haven't been with him. He doesn't meen to, he just misses me, so I don't get mad or upset with him. How can I get mad at someone for missing me? But yeah, I get my baby all weekend.

On another note, I feel like I'm running out of time, again. Come the 30th I'll be taking the two and a half hour trip back to the college. I mean, I love the college, I love the freedom, but I am also going to miss everyone here. I wouldn't feel so sad but Max and I are getting an apartment together after this semester is done, in the winter. I'm going to be very sad when everything is finalized and I've moved in. Having a place of my own will be nice, and so will supporting myself, but I'm always going to miss westclarksville and all the people here. I mean, I'm going to visit. I'm planning on coming back every Christmas for at least a few days, and sometimes on the weekends Max and I will take the trip down but I'm always going to miss this place. Maybe some day I'll move back and buy my own house somewhere nere. I'm not saying rite away, but of coarse who knows where life will take me. I know though that no matter where I go I will always have a home here, somewhere, and I want all to know that for all the hositality and as well as everyone has treated me, that my apartment is open to everyone. If any of you have are having a hard time and need someplace to crash, need help of any sort, need a shoulder to cry on, or just need a friend, my apartment is always open, and I'm always free for family to call. Well, I will be when I get a cell phone, haha, but yeah. I love you all, and you are all welcome in my home.

My computer battery is about to die though, so I'll post this and talk to you all later. Love you all, you will all be in my thoughts.

An Update

I'm still at Max's if you didn't know. And I'm very sick again. Or at least I was. I wen't to the hospital on Thursday, Max took a half day off to take me, cause he's my sweetheart, so that was good. He took me to this one medical place, only they refused to treat me untill I prepaid 130$ becauise I have an outstanding bill with them for like 160$ due to a past escursion with my dreaded tonsils. So Max had to drive another hour to get me to the hospital in Canandaigua. This was my first time at this hospital and theyt were pretty much amazing. This hospital gave me an amazing dosage of medication . I am on Prednizone to keep the swelling down, wich I don't really think that I need, but am following anyways. Also they put me on Clyndamiacine. I may have misspelled that. Just say it pheonetically. But this medication is insane. I have to take 2 pills (300 mg) every 6 hours, wich means that I have to get up at 4am to take pills. It pisses me off. But I do it because I don't want to get sick again. Also the dr.s there took a full throat culture wich no other hospital has done before, so when they can actually figure out exactly what is wrong with my tonsils, I can add a name to the hell that I have been through all summer.

On a cheerier note, Max and I went to see Dark Night, the new Batman film last night. We doubled with two vwry good friends of ours, Tiff and Peter. They are actually the couple that Max and I met through, so we like to keep in contact with them. Also they are very nice people that we enjoy hanging out with that don't put us through a lot of shit about anything or make anything that makes us to frustrated. Thats hard to find in people because there are only a select few people that Iv'e known for a long time that don't piss me off or stab me in the back. And I do love those friends with all my heart. After all, friends like that are more family then friends to me. Oh yeah, back on topic, last night was a very fun night because we had dinner at there apartment and then went to the movie together. Tiff and Peter are cards to so there wasn't a boring minute the whole night. And the movie was amazing! It was incredibly dark and very violent, and both of those added to Batman makes for a ery amazing movie. And the Joker was creepy shit, but an amazing acting job by the guy who played him.

I do beleive that I am going to go though, the meds have got my stomach feeling queezy, yet again. But have a good day and I will get back to you all soon.

HOLY FUCK SHIT!!!!

I'm gonna try and go in chronological order fpr all this for you, but try to keep up.

1. I went to Warped Tour last thursday, and it was AMAZING!! I got to see Reliant K, Gym Class Heroes, Angels and Airwaves, Pennywise, Street Dogs, Reel Big Fish and Say Anything. It was so amazing fo r me, beiung my first concert and all. I got a Gym Class Heros shirt, a Reel Big Fish Shirt, a Warped Tour shirt and a Say Anything Hoodie. The hoodie has a monkey on it. I like it. Also I got to meet Reel Big Fish, and I mean the WHOLE band! It was so cool, cause i got to shake there hands and they signed a shirt that I bought and Jhonny Christmas said that I was beautiful when I met him! It was one of the best expieriences of this summer. Also I was in my first real mosh pit during Pennywise, Street Dogs, Reel Big Fish and Say Anything, all in a row, nonstop. When I was finnally able to get outr of the pit, I was so dehydrated that I was shaking and incredibly dizzy, if Kami hadn't have found me when she did I may have passed out, I was pretty bad, but she got me water and I think that I chugged like 2 liters of water brfore I was able to slow down and recuperate. It was an expierience to remember, and oine of the most intense things I've ever been in. I can't waitr for my next show.

2. I'm at Max's again. This last weekend was really nice to because Max came down for me and we spent the weekend at Kami's again. On Friday, when he came, Max, Kami, Alex and I all went in to Olean for the day, and that night went to see Hellboy 2, wich was way better than I expected. Also this weekend Max and I will be doubling with Peter and Tiffany out here in Canandaigua. It will be a regular dinner and movie, wich is amazing, I love doing thta kind of thing with Max, it means a good night with good friends and wonderfull entertainment.

3. I'm sick again. My tonsils have flaired up again and I'm going to be going to the hospital again in the next couple hours. Max is so worried about me that he is taking a half day at work so that he can take me at noonish instead of six pm tonight. I've been so lucky to have him this summer, he's been with me every step of the way. Theres only been one time thta he hasn't been with me when I went to the hospital and that was the first time, and only because I was home and h ewasn't with me. He has however been with me the past three times and today makes that four times. I have no idea though how many times I'm going to be in the hospital though, I'm still waiting to find out of the county is going to give me health insurence or not. I'ts frustrating as shit because I need to get my tonsils out or else I'm just going to get sicker and sicker each time. Also no insurence means that I have a tone of medical bills piling up that I just can't pay. I'm not sure what I'm going to do at the moment. Also, if this keeps up its going to be hard when I get back to the college to get a job because I'm going to be sick to much to hold a job down. I'm hoping though that help comes soon, after all, something has to pull through. Either the health insurence or the money from the auto accident that I was in, both are a possibility though neither a strong one. I'm pulling through though, and I have Max here when times start getting to tuff.

4. I just found out that a good friend of mine, Kat, died recently. Luckily it was only for two minutes, she had gotten incredibly angry, I wont go into details, and literally drank herself to death at a party. Thank god a friend found her and called an ambulance. They used the paddles on her but she was legally dead for two minutes. Scared the shit out of me when I found out. I can tell you this though, it puts some things in to perspective to have death come that close to your friends, I mean damn! She's okay though thank god, an dI'm hoping that she stops drinking or at least slows down a hell of a lot. After all, none of us are superman.

He Duck Taped the Remote Control to the Ceiling....

Yeah, this kid drives me nuts. His name is Dylan, and I've been around him so long that I think that my tubes have tied themselves. I can tell you this though, if i ever have kids, they better be mute.

Because this kid is such a... kid, Alex duck taped the remote control to the ceiling so that Kami could watch her show with out him screaming to get the control. We told him that the remote is all his if he can reach it. Luckily, he has a short attention span and decided to play on his moms computer instead.

I'm still alone rite now. I miss Max, a lot. We talk on the phone every night, well, almost every night, but I still miss him being next to me. It feels so strange because I've barely been touched during the past two weeks. I mean, I've hugged Kami and Alex each day when I've left, but I haven't had any one to lean on or just have to touch and touch me whenever the mood arises. It feels strange not to be touched. Also ever since I came home I havent been sleeping as well as I should. Back when I was younger I never thought that sharing a twin bed with someone each night could condone a reastfull sleep, and with past guys, it hasn't. With Max however I sleep better when I'm sharing a bed with him. I love waking up in the morning with his arms around me.

I get to be with him again this weekend, so good days will be here again. Max will be here on Friday and we are going to go to see Hellboy 2 with Kami and Alex. It's gonna be a double date. I've only been on one double date before this. It was with Leo, that shit, and it was where we walked with two friends of ours to a pizza place and the four of us split a large pizza. It should have been a fun night, but the people we were with and the shity I was with made it a pretty shitty nights, as were most times I had a boyfriend at the college. But hey, I lived and I'm happy now and that's all that matters.

Thursday is Warp tour, so when I do get to see Max I'm going to be tired as shit. Warp tour is going to be insane! Like 50 bands playing all in one day, only 35 bucks to here all of them. It's going to be amazing! And I get to see Reel Big Fish! Holy Fuck Shit I love Reel Big Fish!! But other then that.....I do think that I'm going to have fun.

Then tomarrow I'm going to be going shopping most of the day with my mom. She has to get groceries and I need to pull my money out if the bank for Thursday. Also I need to spend like 5 bucks on a small bag to carry my shit in for Warp tour. I don't carry a purse so I need to buy one to put my t-shirts and memorabilia on.

On another note I'm teaching myself the Melbourne Shuffle. For those of you that don't know what the Melbourne Shuffle is, just You Tube it and I promise that you will be amazed. The dancing is awesome. I've only tried it like twice so far, but I downloaded some How To's and when I'm alone during the day at Max's house I'm going to practice in the kitchen. I feel like a bit of a dork figuring it out, so I'd rather wait untill I get a bit better at it to do it in front of people. I like dancing though, and this is something that when I get doing it I can do it almost anywhere and it's a good work out.
I'm going to be getting a job as soon as I get back to the college as well. I'm hoping to get a nice job at the locale Jo-Anne Fabrics. It's a nice store and I know each of the isles and can help costamers with almost any question because of my background with crafting. My mom taught me almost everything when it comes to crafting. I can crochet, knit, sculpt, paint, sew, weave, and just about anything else out there that has to do with crafting. Plus a nice shop job would be enjoyable for me. I can't do food service cause I would never be able to eat out again and also I burn any food that I have to apply heat to.

Well, I do beleive that this is a long enough post already. Hope you enjoy your week and I'll get back to yall soon.

tattoo'd midgets, no health insurence, and some headaches

Yeah, I know, its been a while since I blogged. I haven't had any internet to blog though so there hasn't been much for me to do about blogging.

A lot has happened these past two months. Ive been sick every two weeks all summer. All four times has been because of my tonsils. I need them taken out but my health insurance company decided to drop me, so I can't get them taken out like I need to. It kind of sucks ass.

I've been skipping back and fourth between my house in way low NY, all the way up to Williamson NY all summer too. My Max lives up there and I spend a couple weeks here at home and then a couple weeks up there with him. I have a lot of fun up there to. He's the only one that I could spend three weeks with and not want to kill. That kind of guy is hard to find.

I think I'm gonna spazz though because a fly keeps landing on my arm and god damnit it's pissin me off!

Also a few days ago I went with Kami when she got her tattoo. It's a beautiful fairy tattoo, and I loved watching the guy tattoo her. I have been toying with the idea that maybe I might try out becoming a tattoo artist. It's an idea to toy with at least.

Im selling my guitar tomorrow. Not my electric one but my acoustic one, good old Chaz Addams. I don't really mind though because I'm thinking about switching to base, it just fits me better. I'm too laid back to play guitar.

Max is coming back to me next weekend. We are gonna go and see Hellboy 2 with Kami and Alex as a double date. It should be pretty fun, they are really good together and we all get along so well. Hell they love Max, Kami and teh family have pretty much adapted him. I'm glad for that to because after my fourth semester Max and I are going to be moving in together somewhere in canandaigua. I like that he gets along with everyone and that they all like him because he's gonna be around for a long time so this makes life easier.

God I'm so tired and I have no idea why. I got more then enough sleep. I'm thinking that I just slept a bit off.

Oh and hey I wrote a very short story that I think everone here may enjoy. If you could just leave me a massage about what you think about it.


BlooD

I had to pause long enough to clean the blood off of my glasses. I’d take them off, but then I couldn’t enjoy watching my customers face caving in. I need to find a new job.
As I watched the bitch’s head turn to a funky congealed mess, I fell in to a quiet Zen like state. In the tranquility of the moment, I began to reflect on the events that led to this moment. And in the sepia toned snapshots of my memories, I realized something; I’m fuckin nuts.
I should be on medication. The kind where ten percent of the people that use it get intense depression and kill themselves. I would probably be in that ten percent. Maybe if I had killed myself, I wouldn’t have killed all those people.
Evan as I realize this, I know that I’m not going to go to a doctor when this bitch is dead. I’m not going to sit on that couch and tell him that daddy didn’t hug me enough. I know this because deep down in my heart, I believe that all those fucktards deserved it.
Also because I have a date tonight with the hot chick from the book store. God I hope she’s not a zombie like the last girl. Lately it feels like all the hot chicks are reanimated corpses.
Well, except for the last woman. She was just a bitch.
You can always tell when they are dead already because they care to much about there appearance. If they do that then they are hiding there dead flesh from us so as not to assume they are the godless. I won’t say that I’ve been rite on every girl that I thought was a zombie, because my method does have it’s errors. But at least I’ve gotten a couple.